Sunday, May 23, 2010

Thank You!

I just wanted to send a shout out to all my blogging friends who've left me such sweet, kind, and supportive comments in my time of trial and tribulation. Your love has made my day. THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!!

Saturday, May 22, 2010

Update On Me

Hello friends! I just wanted to update you on my health situation. I still don't know with 100% certainty that I have breast cancer. I hope to find that out by Wednesday of next week as I go in Monday for a surgical biopsy. It will be an out patient surgery and I'll be home the same day, thank God. Then will come that nerve wracking wait for the results; ditto with the results of the PET scan that I had today to see if there's been any spreading of the cancer (if it's there).

Whether or not I even have cancer...I just don't know what to think. As I wrote in my previous post I was told I have breast cancer but was later informed by my surgeon that my pathology report was inconlusive. Still, my surgeon, Dr. C, is 99% convinced that I do have cancer and we just need to find out what kind, hence the new biopsy. My oncologist, Dr. G, is more doubtful, telling me flat out that "we don't know" if I have cancer because the results of the first biopsy were "useless". Two good doctors; two different opinions. So, what to think? I don't know. All I can do is wait for the results, prepare for the worst, and pray for the best.

The next few days are going to be a little hard.


I almost forgot. My genetic test results came back NEGATIVE for BOTH gene mutations that signigicantly increase a woman's chances for breast cancer. This is good because IF I do have breast cancer not having the mutations means that I won't have to consider a double mastectomy as my best or even only treatment option. If the lump is small enough--and Dr. C thinks it is--I can get by with only a lumpectomy followed by radiation and/or chemo. That's the treatment option I prefer if I have to have treatment. But I'm steadfastly praying that I won't.

Wednesday, May 12, 2010


Hello blogging friends! This is going to be a very personal post. I hesitated to write it. Once I'd said what I want to say I was worried about getting nasty comments from any of my ideological opponents, most notably Jane. Plus, what I have to say isn't the most pleasant thing to talk about, but I decided that my loyal blogging friends deserve to know what's going with li'l ol' me. So here goes.

As of yesterday, Tuesday May 11, I'm 99% sure I have breast cancer. On Monday I was 100% sure I have the disease, but during my visit to my surgeon, Dr. C, on Tuesday I was shown my actual pathology report which was some what inconclusive. The report doesn't say my biopsy was positive for breast cancer; instead it says there was "extensive" dead cell proliferation "consistent with necrotic carcinoma" (necrotic means dead). Sounds like cancer, doesn't it? But the path report also says, twice, that "[n]o viable tumor was identified". So I'm a bit confused, though my surgeon is proceeding on the opinion that I do, in fact, have breat cancer. I understand and accept that.

Tomorrow I have to go for genetic testing. This was suggested to me by a nurse at my local cancer resource center. Dr. C concurred on getting the test. He said I need to know if I have a certain cancer-causing gene because that could have a bearing on the best way to treat my disease. But there won't be any treatment of any kind until after I see my oncologist on Friday. After that the next step is to have another biopsy, most likely a surgical one. If it comes back conclusively positive for breast cancer then I will have some serious decisions to make. And that's all there is medically, right now.

You might be wondering how I'm doing emotionally, and the answer is, fine. Finding the lump in my breast back in March and then finding out it's most likely cancer threw me for a loop. I'm doing ok, though. My outlook is totally positive. I'm praying hard and there are many other people praying for me, too. Despite the prayers, I get scared or depressed occassionally. Mostly, though, I'm in good spirits. I decided that it just wouldn't do any good to be bitter and wallow in self-pity. Having hope and faith and a merry heart is the way to go. And that's what I'm doing. No matter what happens I choose to believe that I will be alright. I have too many leftists to fight to let a little cancer slow me down!

Keep me in your thoughts and prayers!

Your blogging buddy,


Wednesday, May 05, 2010

The Great Liberal Hope

It wasn't a "teabagger".

Despite the Left's desperate hope that the terrorist wannabe who tried to blow up Times Square was a Tea Party devotee, he turned out to be a--surprise!--Muslim with the usual jihadi chip on his shoulder. It wasn't supposed to be that way. NYC mayor Michael Bloomberg opined Monday that the Times Square bomber was probably some home grown, disturbed individual upset about Obamacare. Not so much, and the Left is distraught. MSNBC anchorwoman Contessa Brewer gave perhaps the most eloquent voice to liberal dismay.

Speaking on The Stephanie Millier Show Brewer whined, "There was a part of me that was hoping this was not going to be anybody with ties to any kind of Islamic country. Because there are a lot of people who want to use terroist intent to justify writing off people who believe in a certain way or come from certain countries or whose skin color is a certain way. I mean they use it as a justification for really outdated bigotry."

First, who is this "they" who supposedly use "terrorist intent" to justify racism? Second, what race, religion, ethnicity, or nationality would Brewer have preferred the Times Square bomber to be? We know the answers to these questions. The "they" are Republicans/conservatives who dare to call Islamic terrorism what it is and lay the blame for it on Islam. And Brewer would've been estactic if TS Boy had been a white, male, Christian who had attended a Tea Party protest. That would've conformed perfectly to liberals' narrative of evil white, anti-Obama, Tea Partiers.

You see, liberals don't need proof of the wickedness of the Tea Party movement. They just know that the movement and its participants are dangerous. Still, proof would be nice. That is the great liberal hope, to find a smoking gun that reveals beyond question the violent, malicious nature of those white, Tea Party folks. Liberals thought they had such a smoking gun in Amy Bishop, the biology professor who murdered three of her fellow profs at the University of Alabama in February. Bishop, however, turned out to be an Obama supporter.

The next candidate for the great liberal hope was Joseph A. Stack, who flew his plane into an IRS building in Austin, TX in February. A ha! An anti-tax protestor! This guy had to be involved in the Tea--Taxed Enough Already--Party movement. The smoking gun at last! But it was not to be. Joseph Stack turned out to be a left-wing extremist who railed against capitalism and organized religion as much as against taxes. Stack had nothing to do with the Tea Party movement. The smoking gun the liberals longed for proved a dud.

And then came the Times Square almost attack.

Hope burned brightly again for liberals but the flame almost instantly flickered out. The Times Square bomber wannabe turned out to be a TOTALLY unpc suspect. A Muslim, an immigrant, a person of color, everything that their dogma orders liberals to embrace. And, as Brewer showed, they did.

The Times Square would be bomber has been given sympathetic treatment by at least some in the lame stream media. They can't help it. Their worldview won't let them treat TS Boy any other way. If a Muslim, immigrant, and/or person of color commits a crime it's never his fault, at least not his fault alone. White, Western, Christian culture is the real culprit, the real threat. Liberals know this; they just lack the proof that will convince the rest of us. So they keep on hoping for the advent of the unmistakable sign that they are right.

One day, liberals believe, a white guy with a Tea Party t-shirt will blow something up and they will be there to exploit the carnage for political gain. That's what liberals want. A terrorist attack by a white guy, someone they can condemn. That is their great hope, and it's sick.